PART 28: VIOLET

January 2021, Sydney

Okay, let's do a quick round up over the past week or two. I just got back to Sydney after doing Christmas with my family up in north-west New South Wales. Oh, I stayed with my sister, this time instead of my mom and stepdad. She lives in an even smaller country town, about 40 kilometres west of my hometown. There's about 2000 people there. So very little. She's pregnant at the moment with her third child. She has to one that is just over two and a half and one that is just over one. So it was a very energetic, hectic, busy, festive period. I've never spent that much time around kids my life. So it was a bit of a baptism of fire.

I still don't want kids but was surprised to find that I'm better at wrangling them than I thought I would be. In the past. I've been a bit awkward around my sister's kids and just like kids in general. But yeah, kind of naturalised to it and got into it. It was really fun playing with them and interacting and spending some one-on-one time with my sister.

Before all that though, the day before I left to go back home, my boyfriend and I had an early Christmas, and we swapped our gifts, which was really lovely and fun. He got me, turntables, because one of the many things, one of the many skills, I want to fit inside myself this year, is learning how to DJ and start making some sets, mixes, whatever. So that was really great. He got that for me completely of his own volition. No hints. Which was really thoughtful of him. Then he took me to the train the next day and I headed home. We've spent the past few days together. Since I've come back, we did New Year's Eve together, which was really nice. This is our third one together and the first one where I didn't do drugs, which was really good.

I am back to work tomorrow. Reality is starting to hit. I don't really feel ready. Thinking about it is giving me a fair bit of anxiety. I feel like I do need to go and put in as much effort as possible. Especially now that we have the mandatory mask mandate going on. I'm a little bit worried about these clusters growing and about potentially going into full lockdown again. So I think I need to bear that in mind and work as much as I possibly can before things get a bit dire. But touch wood that doesn't happen. Hopefully it won't happen before mid-January because my boyfriend and I have booked a holiday on a big property just a little bit outside of Byron. It's the first time we will have gone away together for two years. So if that doesn't come to fruition, I am going to be gutted.

It's a really beautiful house and a really beautiful property and he's super excited to take some photos and videos for me to make content for Only Fans. We love a supportive partner. So, uh, yeah, it'll be it'll be good all round, I think, to go up there provided that it goes ahead. Um, I think that's about the update. I will be starting to study in, I think, exactly a month today. And we'll probably start going to Polish school a few days before that. So this is kind of the calm before the storm this week. So not much share. Just nice festive family things.