PART 17: LUCIE

March 2020, Brisbane

It's a Saturday, and I just had a short booking, that originally, I wasn't sure what I was going to take because I’d sort of got started with other stuff in my day. I sometimes find it difficult to get enthusiastic about jobs when I have already set my day out. And I think I know how it's gonna go. And I never want to, if I can help it, go into a job being just like raging pissed. But I did it.

I'm glad I did it because he was a really, really lovely guy. And it was fun and just really breezy. Good chat. I like it when people are chatty or can at least follow along while I'm chatty. I never let that get in the way of like ‘the good stuff’ but I don't know, it's nice to be able to get to know people even like the slightest little bit.

I feel like as things are getting more intense, like about this virus and everything like that, I just feel like I should be taking, you know, as many bookings, as I feel comfortable with while I can, because I don't know what's going to happen, especially with the way things are going. You know, a lot of people are saying they're going to stop working for a while, and you know,  I can't necessarily do that. But at the same time, like, I have to make sure that I'm taking care of myself, otherwise, I can't work at all.

And also just respecting these little things I set in place to just look off to myself. You know, making sure I can have breakfast when I want to and just still have a life and a social life and not just dropping everything all the time at the whim of a client when they call. Sometimes I feel like I do that too much. And I really start to get angry at myself for it.